Eric Bailey's

I am not sure if I am jusst tired from a busy, active weekend, or if I am a little depressed from a bad football game. After our Saturday game, we felt like we could play with most teams, and then on Sunday we discovered that we definitely could not play with this team.

I don't feel like doing anything today. I know I have some things that I need to do, some things that I would like to do, and even some things that would be good to do, but I just want to go to bed. This game brought back a lot of the feelings that I have been experiencing the past couple years. The feelings that make me want to play hockey, where I know I can usually do something. I have more to give on the field, but I don't want to be bossy about it. I'm not just some receiver saying "I'm open". I am the coach of the team. When I give advise, it is like a boss telling you to look at something. But I could have done more.

I think that there are a few other things besides football that bring out these feelings. I could have done more, I should have spoken up more. That is depressing. I often over analyze situations. I can think myself out of many decisions, and then let that regret start to kick in. Is that regret or guilt? I think I'll go back to bed and think about this one.