Monday, May 27, 2013
Dreams
Last week I was afraid of waking up back in The Pas. This week I am waking up in The Pas.
I should hear this week about some job possibilities this week. I have applied all over the place but I have interviewed in Parksville. I will keep applying until I have a job but it is hard not to get discouraged.
Saturday, May 25, 2013
Airports
So this year I've spent more time flying than ever before. Every month I have flown home and then back to work. It has not been easy and my phobias are not getting better - but they are not getting worse either. Landing in Vancouver today on the way to Saskatoon, the turbulence was a bit higher than usual. I've experienced worse but I could tell it was not going to be smooth. I pulled one of my therapy tricks out and used it. I focused on deep breaths. At no point during the landing did I seize up like ice felt other times in turbulence. I was much calmer, even though I was being triggered by turbulence. I may have to start listening to myself.
This morning, before I left, my wife and I had the opportunity to test drive some new motorcycles. I drove the Yamaha Raider. It was the biggest bike I've ever driven. It was a sweet ride. I was fighting the wind pretty hard but the bike handled easily and rumbled down the road, content at whatever speed I was driving. I'm not used to the cruiser pegs so far in front and shifting was smooth and easy but seemed weird as the shifter is in a different spot than I am used to. I think I could live with owning one of these bikes. Something else added to my wish list. Maybe I'll have to pick up my goldwing and survive driving it around this summer.
Friday, May 24, 2013
A difficult year
The year of pain is almost over. I have one more trip to The Pas with 3 weeks remaining in my time there. I do not look forward to the trip back starting tomorrow but I look forward to getting it over with.
I have been beating down doors looking for some sort of employment to help me start up my career in out here. If I hear back, right now I hear, "no you're not quite the right fit." Sort of a close but no cigar. I can't figure out if that means I'm winning the interview but just lack the experience or I look good on paper and bomb the interview. I've only had 2 interviews so far so mostly it is just on paper I don't fit. I guess I have some more pounding on doors to do.
I am not quite freaking out but I will be soon as I will be closer to finishing and not employed.
